I'm through it

I had my spinal on Friday. I thought it was going to be a girl but that is next time. This time I had an Asian guy. He was also from St. Cloud. They rotate through shifts up here. He got to the fluid on the first try. Three shots to numb where he went in with the blunt needle - it was over in about twenty minutes. He did hit a nerve in my leg several times that took my breath away. I actually started crying like a big baby because it's like getting hit with 220 volt of electricity. But it was over pretty quickly and I was so glad. I guess we will see how well the lady does this next time. It will be Thursday, March 7 at either noon or one. Can't remember which time right off my head.

I have begun going down the stairs and up again with my physical therapist. What a cool deal. I use the handrail and a crutch on the other side. My therapist stands in front of me and down we go! I haven't been downstairs since October or November of last year. Maybe we can start doing school down there again.

It's been in the thirties here the last little bit. Dan set me on the back of the tailgate of his truck on Saturday and then backed over to where he had a fire going outside. He and his Dad have been busy cutting down our dead trees around the property and then they burned some of the wood in a big fire. It was so nice to be outside for awhile.

I received a text today from someone who reads my blog. She sent me a great verse from the Bible that I'm going to leave you with. Chow.

 But we have these treasures in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God. 
2 Corinthians 4:7

I guess we'll try again tomorrow...

Tomorrow is my spinal tap at 9:30 am. The radiologist from St. Cloud will be here. She is suppose to be a specialist in the spine. Hopefully, she can get it on the first try. I'm scared. It hurts even when I try my hardest to meditate on scripture or think happy thoughts. :) I'm so glad each time when it's over.

Last time I asked my doctor how much longer I would have to do this. He said that when my numbers (protein in my blood)  reach 12-60 (they are 140 right now but started at 2200) he would do the spinal tap every 3 weeks and then every month. Then, he said that most people continue with the spinal tap long term.

That really threw me for a loop. I spent the weekend in a funk. I really wondered what I was here for. Why doesn't God just take me home if I have to go through all this pain. What is life exactly? Why am I here?

I talked with my pastor on Sunday and he told me that the doctor wasn't the final authority on my health. I don't have to take everything he says as gospel truth. Not that he's not a great doctor because he is...  I didn't even think of that, of questioning what my doctor says.

God is in charge. Always. Pray with me that these spinal taps end soon. I don't know how but God does. He has a plan and it's a good one.

Even if He has decides that spinal taps are in my indefinite future.

A Few Words

I went for my spinal tap today and my oncologist and the radiologist couldn't get into my spinal fluid. I spent the afternoon there. They went ahead and gave me herceptin through my port but the spinal tap was a failure. Each doctor tried twice. I have a very sore back where the needles went in repeatedly. My oncologist wants me to wait until a radiologist comes from St. Cloud. Sometime early next week. UUUUGGHH!

I am doing better. I am more aware of my surroundings every day. Where was I? Maybe that was God's blessing so I don't remember everything that has happened to me. I don't want to look back anyway just forward to the good things God has in store for me. If I don't stand on His promises daily I can get so down and out.

Pray for me and the spinal tap next week. Pray that it will be successful from the start. As I stated before, I covet your prayers to our heavenly Daddy.

Dan and I went out last night for Valentine's Day and braved the crowds for a good meal. We waited several hours at our local Mexican restaurant (big surprise, huh). Very good food, though.

Here's a pic that Shelby took out the front window during one of our snows. Pretty, huh?

Guess I've updated enough. Have a super evening.

It Snowed!

We got about 8-10 inches of snow last night. I was hoping for a foot but at least we got some beautiful snow! A friend from church came by last night and plowed us out so we are good to go. Everything is pristine and white today. I love it! The kids are outside and have been for a couple of hours. I think they are trying to build a snow fort in the big piles of snow that the plow left.

Life is filled with school, meals, physical therapy for me, and of course, my appointment every other week to have a spinal tap. I almost forget about the appointment during the weeks that I don't have it. I will be so glad when it's done. I've been happy about the progress I'm making in physical therapy. I'm able to get up from my wheel chair to my walker without help. Dan took down the hospital bed this weekend and I've been sleeping in our bed again! Praise the Lord!

I've been sitting here wondering what to have for supper. I checked our list (my in laws Dave and Jo are here to help) and we had come up an old favorite. Tonight we are going to have burrito bake. Here's the recipe.

Burrito Bake

heat oven to 375 degrees

1 c Bisquick
1/4 c water
1 can refried beans
1 lb ground beef (cooked and drained)
1 can or jar of green chili salsa
1 1/2 c shredded cheese ( your choice I use colby jack)

Grease 8 inch square pan. Mix beans, water and Bisquick. Spread in pan. Layer remaining ingredients.

Double for 9x13 pan.

I better run. Gotta get supper going.