Lots of this and that

I had another spinal tap today. It went very well and I was home by fourish. We seemed to have settled into a routine of some sorts.

I saw my doctor today and he said that I was just a "miracle child". I don't mind being called that. I don't mind being used by God that way either. I just have to give it up to him each day. I think I've already done that and then something else comes up. I reminded again to open my hands and give everything back to Him.

I had a small lump on by left breast for awhile but really though it was more of a pimple, It's been around for a long time but just recently got bigger. Another chance for my mind to run away with all sorts of unhealthy thoughts. What if.... I've also had several bouts with dizziness and vomiting. I have this for several days and then it goes away.

My doc wants me to watch and write down when I'm feeling sickly or throwing up but doubts it's the tumors because it would be more regular. He agreed with me that the "thing" on my chest looks more like a zit. Yay, I was so glad to hear that.

So, on with life. We look forward to having company over the Labor Day weekend. Hopefully, we will have nice weather and the sticky will go away.

My cousin and his wife visited us last week.We had such a fun time. I will have to share her recipe for chocolate zucchini cake that was to die for! Maybe next time. Take care!

Worn

I heard a beautiful song today. I had heard it before but the words really sank in. It's called Worn by Tenth Avenue North. Seems like some days I could've written these very words.

Click here to hear the song.

Here are the lyrics.

I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn

Where have I been...

Well, I've been squeezing every bit of summer I can out of July and August.

 We have had some cool days but its recently decided to be summer again. We've spend two days already at the beach this week. 

My sisters came up so we could celebrate our birthday (I'm a twin) last week. They spent the week here and we shopped and ate and boated and sunned. It was wonderful. 

Two of our children went home to Colorado with the aunts so its been quiet here this week.

We took the remaining two out for ice cream and miniature golf at a fun place in Brainerd.

We played the game chairs on the porch tonight. What a beautiful day.

We are busy with the last days of summer. Hope you are getting chances to be out in the sunshine.

I have treatment again this coming Tuesday. Please pray for me as you always do.